Sounds, Soliloquy, & 6 Strings

& other ramblings of this Hilliard

Faces January 7, 2011

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Look in their faces

A person, a story

Crafted by their Creator

To give Him glory


With Stomachs that hunger

Cuts that bleed, and

Tears that fall

They’re not different from me


But for a language & skin color

Our hearts are the same

Hopeless without a Saviour to save


I sit back & relax in my cold office chair

The faces I don’t see

Make no reason to care


I scoff with my actions and

Hoard my small wealth

Basking in successes

I’ve made for myself


But their faces they catch me and

Lure my mind in

To tell me the stories

That lie behind them.


They’re hurt, they’re lonely

They’re happiness fake

With no real joys to laugh at

And their façade breaks


I know, I’ve felt it

And been there in a way

But regardless of the kind

The same hope remains


I sit in the sin

That was conquered for me

And ignore their faces



Disregarding the blood

Spilt for their sin

And the Saviour that calls me

To go and love them


Disobedient feet

Go, and serve

Stubborn heart

Love the Lord


Walk in the power

Provided in Christ

Power to obey

And lay down my life


How will they call on Him

In whom they have not believed?

Oh Father, forgive me.


May the Lamb that was slain

Receive the glory due his name.


Jealousy October 29, 2010

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Jealousy. It’s a nasty little word. It’s an ugly hidden sin. You hardly ever know when someone is struggling with jealousy, right? I mean, it’s a sin that’s kept hidden dark on the inside and for some reason, I, personally, have this tendency to believe that I can just push it to a dark corner of my heart, try to ignore it, and think it will just go away…..

The truth is that jealousy is a sin. Against the Holy God. A sin that Christ bore the wrath of God on account of. It is a sin that believers are called to fight. Actively. Pursuing righteousness because we love Jesus and he is deserving of obedience. In this case his word is:

“A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy makes the bones rot.”

–Proverbs 14:30

Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying
one another.”

-Galatians 5:19-26

For we ourselves were once foolish, disobedient, led astray, slaves to various passions and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by others and hating one another. But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life. The saying is trustworthy, and I want you to insist on these things, so that those who have believed in God may be careful to devote themselves to good works. These things are excellent and profitable for people.” –Titus 3:3-8

So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good.”

-1 Peter 1:1-3

If you’re like me and find yourself struggling with jealousy, I encourage you to not despair. 2 Peter 1:3-4 says, “His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence, by which he has granted to us his precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature, having escaped from the corruption that is in the world because of sinful desire.” Praise God! This sin does not have to conquer us and even greater. If we can defeat it, it is nothing of our own power, strength, or merit. It is only because of the power of JESUS in our life; not our own self will & determination. We must fight to run to him for the grace to change and to fight this sin.

A dear friend encouraged me with a blog series on the Girl Talk blog. . I encourage…no, I challenge you to read the series on Envy as well. Those Mahaney women are so encouraging with the Word.

In closing, Christ is calling us to follow him, to love him, to treasure him, to keep our eyes on him, and not to look at how he’s working in somebody else’s life with jealousy. I pray we fight to love Him well.


*scripture is quoted from ESV.





Influence October 26, 2010

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Singer/Songwriter Emily Lynch posted a blog about role models today, particularly musical role models. So thanks to Emily’s inspiration, I began pondering my own musical role model. Here’s my response. Thanks, EmilyJ

My musical role model at the moment is hands-down, Christa Wells. She’ll probably never see this so its not like I’m trying to butter her up or something but it’s true. Christa inspires me for many reasons and here are a few of them in no particular order:

  • She has strong religious affections for Jesus, and from what I read, solid biblical convictions.
  • She is a wife, mother of FIVE children, home schools her kids and all while she is a successful singer/songwriter.
  • She is a singer/songwriterJ
  • Her lyrics are not merely “fluff” written to get a good-sounding tune on the radio but she seriously considers the lyrics of each song. She looks at her lyrics as art (I’ve read her posts and heard her words) & I think she does an excellent job of painting with words while avoiding corny, predictable lyrics all together
  • I love the way it’s obvious that she thinks deeply and carefully about each word penned in her songwriting.
  • She shares her music with others through recording and concerts. I’m so thankful. I love to watch her genuine performances (thus far- on YouTube- hopefully that will soon change:)
  • She doesn’t come across as “big headed” in the least. I’m sure she struggles with it at times because she’s human and all. But God has given her much grace to maintain a humble attitude while sharing her music.
  • She agreed to have lunch with lil’ ole me and didn’t know a thing about me. And THEN insisted that she pay for my meal when I insistently tried to pay for hers. Wuh? Treats me to lunch and doesn’t know me? I don’t think she gets how its supposed to work when someone takes u 2 lunch;-) Quite humble if you ask me & such a blessing.

And so, Christa Wells is my favorite musical role-model. You may not know her name but you very well may know her music (She penned GMA award winning “Held” performed by Natalie Grant in 2006 as well as other songs performed by Plumb, Point of Grace, Selah, and Sara Groves). If you haven’t heard her, you should check out her website here. I’m so thankful for such a an encouraging influence in my lifeJ

Now, you tell me. Who’s your role model? And feel free to give a description of whyJ


What Couponing Looks like for me September 16, 2010

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1) I subscribed the local paper when it was on sale for $1 so I paid $52 up front for the entire year. Then each month, our family allots $4/month to go towards renewing a Newspaper subscription for the next year. So $52 is invested. Done.

2) I set aside a day each week for clipping those lovely lil’ coupons (normally Sunday afternoons or Monday evenings). I clip them and then file them in my coupon binder. This process can take 30minutes to an hour of my time.

3) My coupon binder is a notebook with two packs of Baseball card holders and those lil’ A-Z dividers. I organize my coupons according to “type” and file them alphabetically. (For example, all of my coupons for Butter have their own page in my binder and the are obviously in the “B” section of my binder, “Cereals” are together in the “C” section, etc.) I do this for a few reasons: 1) It keeps them organized- I like it that wayJ 2) If I am in the store and need Deli Meat, I can simply flip to the “Deli Meat” page in my binder, compare prices & whala, I’ve saved on deli meat & it only took a few secondsJ and 3) The coupons listed on deal sites for “coupon matchups” aren’t ALWAYS what I receive in my paper. I’m able to clearly see what coupons I have & compare deals that way. Sooo all in all, I love the coupon binder method, but hey, I encourage you to figure out which organizing method works for you.

4) Usually Coupon deals for the week are posted online the day before or the day that a sale starts. To find deals, I check out , , and any of the websites that their website links up to. I’ll check out their websites, find the deals I want & copy & paste them into my own lil’ word document. In all of 10-15 minutes I’m done finding my deals.

5) I meal plan. I first “shop my pantry” and see what items I have in stock and then I’ll plan to make recipes for that week based on the ingredients I already have. I make a list of the items I’m lacking as well as any other misc items I am in need of and then…

6) Go to the store(s). My top 2 faves? Kroger & Harris Teeter. When I walk into the store, I always take my coupon notebook with me along with my grocery list & deal list. As I walk through the store I grab the items I need, double check that my coupon REALLY matches (like the online website said it would- warning: they don’t always matchL but this only happens rarely). As I grab the items I need, I pull my matching coupons out of the binder & place it in a lil’ baggie so that I can keep up with them.

7) Right before I check out I usually try to make sure that my grocery items and coupons match up (I try to make sure that I’m not using more than 20 coupons at Harris Teeter (’cause they don’t allow it) and make sure that I got all the items I intended to get with coupons.

8) THE CHECK OUT LANE. I give them my store card, they ring up the items (I check to make sure the right prices are rung up), I give them all of my coupons at once AND I’m doneJ

Sooooo the total amount of time invested each week from Coupons to meal planning to grocery shopping is anywhere from 1:40min to 2:30min. My lowest grocery bill has been $0/wk (cause I’m all stocked up) and my highest has been around $60 (on a REALLY bad day) and my average? $30/wk. Not bad for a family of two. Also, my “groceries” include all toiletries, cleaning supplies, cosmetics, etc. Sooooo instead of a $330/month budget, our budget is now $174- that’s a savings of $156 per month ($1,872 per YEAR)! AND we get MORE food that’s YUMMY! Crazy huh? By the end of this blog you’ve got to be either tired or inspiredJ I hope at least coupon enlightenedJ